Absent Blogger Update

Hello Friends,

Despite a significant absence to the blogging world, things here are going just fine.  I read all the blogs on my reading list every day (I think its an addiction) I just haven't had much to say.   So an update is in order.

J started 5K the day of my last post.  He loves it! And hes tired!  My late night baby (9 or later if we were lucky) has graduated to an 8:30 boy no complaints and out like a light in a matter of minutes.  I debate about having him go down earlier but then I would NEVER see him and we could get nothing done on a weeknight.

J is very excited about the baby.  He is very thoughtful too.  We have a Carters Outlet nearby and they sent a coupon card in the mail.  J got the mail and brought it to me cooing "oh mommy look a baby sale, we should go buy something for my baby brother!"  Seriously, how who can resist that  - esp with his big blue eyes and sweet little face!  So, a few weeks ago I took J to the mall to visit the Oshkosh B'Gosh Outlet for fall school cloths and we stopped by Carters with our coupon and I let him pick out an outfit for the baby to come home in (with a train on it of course) and a fun one (with a monkey playing the guitar) for next spring or summer.  But I had to put the brakes on, he wanted to buy everything!  I had to convince him that we had tons of cute stuff from him and we should check out that before buying too much.  We did find a lovey (a super soft, small blanket square with a small stuffed animal head) for the baby at Kohls.  J had had a very cute lion one, actually 2, so one could be in the sitter bag or the wash and the other in his crib.  He picked out Winnie the Pooh and yes we did buy 2, but boy was he proud! Last night we were at Target and he wanted to buy the baby a cute toy.  I said no  - we need to see what we have already! Then we went out for dinner and he said - "the next time we come here mommy we have to sit at a table with 4 chairs for sure cause of my baby brother!"  I just think its so sweet.

Husband has been working on the house (installing a disposal a few weeks ago and this coming weekend the dishwasher goes in!  Whooo hooo!)  He has also started sorting out our basement.  When we moved into the new house, we emptied/dumped our storage unit into the basement with the intention of dealing with it soon.  Well, then I got pregnant and tired so not much has happened.  He had me come down and point out everything the baby would need for the 1st three months or so.  That buys him like 6-7 months before he has to dig anything out again.  I can't wait to take it all upstairs and set up the nursery. To wash the cloths and show J how little he was.  We are formulating a plan to take the toys from the toy room and relocate them downstairs while keeping them accessible so we can paint and make that the baby's room.  My best friend E and her mom want to come over and help paint - and they suggested stripes!  I cant wait! She had done that in her nursery and it turned out soooo beautiful.  I will post pics once its done.  We are reusing the nursery bedding from J as we love it and don't see reason to buy new.  J is proud to share it!  The theme?  Sealife.

Me?  I am 25 weeks today.  I am feeling well and growing bigger and bigger.  I slightly regret having taken an I don't give a Sh!t attitude to my eating after the miscarriage.  Its hard to turn around, and my sweet tooth is bigger than ever with this baby!  I am worried I am turning into a whale and that I will never wear my size 12s again.   Someday I hope to be even smaller than a 12 but right now a 12 post baby would be amazing.   I just feel so big already.  However, my Dr said she was thrilled at my last visit.  My weight, blood pressure, babys heartbeat and his measurement were all spot on she said. So I guess try to watch what I eat, rest when I'm tired (something I notoriously suck at - I usually just push though) and grow a healthy baby boy.

The name game....? I think we have it, not finalized but certainly our top contender.  Zachary.  The middle name will start with a J as Husband, J and myself all have J middle names.  This name is undecided.  The best part is J really likes this name, he got excited and stopped asking for Phineas or Ferb!

Lastly, I have had some strange emotions this week.  This coming Sunday is my original due date from the pregnancy in Jan.   I am acutely aware of the date, but  I am so firmly encompassed in this pregnancy and preparing and living life that I don't feel overly sad.  Is that wrong?  I wear my reminder charm on my necklace every day, and feel lost if I don't have it on.  Am I sad that that baby is not coming home now? Yes I guess so, although I have really been working on trusting in God and his plan for us.  I am certain that there was something about that baby that we were supposed to learn from....I am just not sure I  know the specific lesson yet. Unless it was simply to trust and what is supposed to happen will - ie: this baby.

I will try to keep you better posted  - I forgot how good it feels to write.  I hope all is well with you my friends. Have a great day!