Patience is a virtue....

If patience is really a virtue, I am failing miserably.  I am 39 weeks and 1 day and I am getting impatient.  I want this baby to be here. 

My doctor keeps telling me how patient I have been waiting and trying for so long to get pregnant.  Now I am pregnant, and despite feeling so blessed to have achieved it, I am done.  I am so ready for him to be here.  I am achy and sore in my nether regions, yet exam on Monday showed  no progress since last week when I was 1 cm and 25% effaced.   Even my biggest pregnancy cloths don't fit right cause he is dropped lower and I am carrying more in front than last time.  My pants don't wanna stay up and my tops don't wanna stay down.  Getting ready in the morning to look semi -professional sucks.  I am ready at work: lists made, people trained, projects completed and no new ones started....(boring).  I am mostly ready at home: room ready, clothing washed, bag packed except for daily essentials.

We were more ready on Sunday night as I had spent the day sorting and organizing - probably nesting - finding homes for J's Christmas and birthday gifts.  But J got a virus Mon and threw up all over his bed, a book case and the carpet in his room.  Poor boy did so good all day - making it to bathroom or in a bucket, but that night, he woke up sat up and threw up and the aim was poor.  So all the books from the book shelf have been wiped down with Clorox wipes, and set around to dry.  the bed is torn apart and pushed back so my pregnant bod could fit in and scrub carpet. The bookcase, though washed down, is not in place as the carpet is still drying.  I still need to take down the Christmas tree, but now need to reassemble his room first.  I still need to clear a spot in my room for the cradle, but that got pushed back too.  Last night I was soo tired.  Finished work at 5, picked up J at school at 5:30, ran to store for dinner stuff, made soup and cheese sandwiches and was laying on bed resting/snoring by 7:30.  Needless to say nothing got reassembled last night.  

Maybe thats why this baby isn't coming.  Maybe I had to get through J's sickness (am praying I don't get it) and reassemble the house first.  Maybe I shouldn't expect anything early as J was 4 days late.  My doc said we could talk about an eviction date on Monday.  I know she is on call next Thursday (1 day after due date) maybe the 20th is a magic day...

Sigh  - I really have tried not to complain or be a miserable pregnant lady as I am so lucky to be jsut carrying this child.  But, my patience has left the building.    I wanna hold him, snuggle him, zip my coat, and sleep on my tummy.  

Sorry for the rant friends.  I think I need some chocolate to sweeten me up.  Gonna go make a hot cocoa now.  I will post as soon as I can when he arrives, hopefully sooner than later!  Have a great day everyone. Thanks for your support.