Today is cycle day 4, Dr cleared me of cysts and I start another round of Clomid tomorrow.

So I follow this blog http://conceiveonline.com/preconceived-notions/ fairly closely and was relating a ton to what the writer had to say (and then she got pregnant too!!! I'm beginning to think that I am the good luck charm for all others who are trying). Anyway, she wrote a blog on borrowing other peoples babies to cuddle. I had kind of been avoiding it - seriously there are new babies everywhere around me so its been kinda hard. But in the last 3 days I have cuddled and snuggled with 2 babies - ahhhh bliss. One was 6 weeks old and I held her all through church (pretty sure I didnt hear the sermon but I felt closer to God!) and the other is 6 months old - different stage but still fun to hold and whisper to and make smile.

Guess what? It wasn't painful. It might have helped. I felt calmer, I felt like a mommy again - just for a moment- I think I will stop avoiding and keep cuddling. Maybe it will be what pushes us over the line. Maybe this will be our cycle - despite it being a crazy month...Maybe.....